A type of disease clinically.
I noticed it while searching the internet after using antidepressants.
I calmed down a lot after starting the medication. I realized that I started to feel more comfortable expressing myself. My anxiety decreased. I can’t even think about what I’m anxious about now. I used to calculate every possibility in detail and get a reaction, but now it doesn’t matter who I’ve hurt or offended. It’s like I’ve become selfish.
You can’t please everyone, neither in business nor in private life. Sometimes people don’t want to be offended, they think it would be rude and take it easy. We say, “Will someone be offended if I say this?” We say, “If I say this, they’ll be upset.” There’s no need. Those who are offended can be offended.
I don’t think all of this is disrespect. It’s not about lack of conscience either. This situation can’t be explained with respect and conscience. This situation is about how much more foolishly we sacrifice ourselves for people who don’t deserve us. Let’s just think about ourselves for ourselves. It’s like mathematics, it’s more correct to be like mathematics than like an accountant.
When I try to look at myself from the outside, the point I’ve reached is like a logical and soulless state. Still, there are people I respect and am happy to have around me.
Those who don’t contribute positively to my life, leave them out of my life. Not because I think I’m shit, but because they believe in me, unnecessary efforts to please, this is not happiness. Those who don’t like spending time with me, leave them out of my life. If someone breaks, they will break, those who think about me should stay with me….
These are not my thoughts, but this is how I feel after the medication. Let’s see what happens in time.
At least I can take care not to break the hearts of the rare people I respect.
However, I was just starting to love life. Now I don’t even know if I love life or not. just living.
