My mind is a mess. I don’t know my feelings because my outlook on life is neutral, my expectations are zero or close to zero. The fact that everything is or will be, the knowledge of what will happen, is an indescribable pain or happiness. Ultimately, it will all end in pain… so one moment we exist, the next we don’t….
I don’t like risk, I don’t trust people, my feelings towards life are neutral…
Trusting someone, perfectionism, risk… these are a bit complicated. Risk means we’re constantly dependent on a possibility; trusting someone means that even if we get betrayed, there comes a day when we have to trust someone again; what good is trying to be a perfectionist? After a while, if it represents perfection, as you move away from it, you suddenly find yourself at zero. There’s no such thing as perfection. Erase it from your mind. Perfection means moving from stagnation towards oneness.
I want the voice inside me to speak of something more beautiful, to think of something better, and to look at the glass half full. So, the distance between your point of existence (a) and point of nothingness (b) will determine where you are closest to it, whether you exist or cease to exist. That’s why I want to move from my point of rest. I don’t want to be stuck there.
So, I want to take risks again, to trust people again. I wish my feelings towards life would change.
Come on, let’s go for a walk. Anyway, you go to sleep…
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